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So I am at work and I should be working buuut obviously I am not. It really really sucks when you care about someone unconditionally and are completely infatuated with them for about two years now then you realize that they just don't really care about you anymore. Yes I am being dramatic and sensitive right now but still. It sucks. blah. |
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[Jun. 10th, 2005|11:12 am] |
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So I am at work right now. I get to re-write a shit load of policies and procedures to fit our corporation that we adopted from Caltech. Oh so exciting. Its really gloomy out today and I don't like it, it needs to get sunny or something. So..I really want to install aim on my computer but I dunno if thats a big no no or whatever. For some reason my firewall on my laptop blocks me from using aim express. Odd. I can't decide what to do this weekend. I really want to take a drive but don't exactly want to take it alone. But unfortunately since the ex messed everything up I have no friends I can call to come with me. It really sucks that he had to fuck everything up so bad because we could have been friends at least. Oh well no dwelling on the past right? What is done is done. I just realized I type incredibly fast. At work the important people are having a meeting. I talked to a guy at starbucks today one of the old men that come in everday. He reminds me of an Italian Mafioso. That is probably why he was one of my favorite customers, that and he used to make fun of all the fat people that would buy frappucinos. Turns out he sells the heads of golf clubs all over the world. OoOo. He also is creating a woman's clothing line. Cashmere sweaters in particular. Then we talked about the incredibly republican city we live in and told me i had to whisper when i talked shit on bush haha.I really enjoy talking to people like him. Slightly bitter old men who call me kid. Maybe its the lack of a grandpa. Who knows? So ..I am dying of boredom. |
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[May. 26th, 2005|06:50 pm] |
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So..I think this story is really funny and should seriously be in a movie. Mainly for the amount of stupidity that one person can show all on his own. So..the night before Vito calls me around 15 times and when I don't pick up my phone right away proceeds to tell me I'm being "sketchy." When of course I'm out like doing 50 dudes at a time cause thats how I am..haha In actuality I had just come back from getting cheesecake factory with elise and we were going to her house to watch tv for a lil bit. So I get an odd feeling from the whole situation like he was trying to make sure I wasn't going to call later on in the night. So I let it go and the next day I get out of class early and decide to drop by and say hi. In other words go check up on him and make sure he wasn't doing anything stupid. So I get to his apartment and see that his car is parked outside his garage..so immediately I know that the only time he parks outside the garage is when he has someone over. dun dun dun. This is when the story gets good. So I decide to be nice and call him on his home phone to give him a lil heads up that I was there. But of course he doesn't pick up. So I go around and walk up to his door and knock...nobody answers but I can totally hear foot steps walking reaaally quietly to see who it was. I knock again..nobody opens the door..so I open the door and he is standing there with the most horrified look on his face. Sooo..I walk in and jen walks out of his bedroom. I look at vito and laugh and say you did NOT do this again. He turns and tries to walk outside but I stop him close the door and stand in front of it ..and tell him we're all sitting down and discussing what has been going on because obviously vito doesn't know how to tell the truth. So me and jen sit there and talk about all the shit that has been going down and apparently he started hanging out with jen after christmas which was way into our relationship...aaand he has told her he loved her and had sex with her before me and him broke up. I always wanted the other girl to be there and have us both confront the dickhead and make him sit and listen to both of us rip him to pieces with words. So it was great. So ..me and her are cool now and I seriously should make friends with her just to spite him. But moral of the story when a guy says you're being sketchy most likely he is the one being sketchy. If I have trust issues in my next relationship I am telling the guy to call up vito and thank him for ruining another relationship. |
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[May. 1st, 2005|08:50 pm] |
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I'm exhausted..what a long and oh so exciting weekend. I had a blast hanging out with my friends as usual..and santa barbara was gorgeous as usual. I found a nice little red c320 online today in Tustin. I cannot wait to walk ouside and see my little mercedes sitting in the driveway. I feel good about things again. |
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[Apr. 22nd, 2005|03:17 pm] |
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Things are better today. Woke up went to work came home early. I had an embarassing moment today..hadn't had one in awhile..it was actually reaally embarassing. I decided to quit starbucks today. I make double at Caltech than at starfucks so theres really no point to waking up at 4:15 am to work anymore. The tables have finally completely turned. Its really funny how life works. The minute you're okay with being single the other person realizes how much they fucked up. Its a really nice feeling to be okay again. At least for the moment. The funniest part of all this is looking back and seeing how dumb people can be..(myself included at moments). Everybody knows rebounds don't work out. So "she" has it coming to her. My dad is coming home tomorrow so I'm crossing my fingers that we can go mini cooper shopping. I cannooot wait to get it. I'm thinking either the royal blue metallic or black..or even the turqouise ish blue ish one. My job is fantastic I really like it alot. Were moving to St. Lukes at the end of May. blah blah the end. |
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[Apr. 18th, 2005|08:52 pm] |
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When it rains it pours. I am really really mad right now. Not only am I dealing with a horrible break up and feel like absolute shit and pretend everything is just fine, but my car breaks down. So I have no car. Then I think I'm getting a new car but my sister goes and ruins it. She somehow manages to run my moms car into the curb and fuck up the tires. One is completely bent inward. So this means me and my mom don't have a way to get to work tomorrow. We have to spend the money that was supposed to go towards a down payment on my car to get my moms car fixed and pay for another rental car. I know theres more important things that are going on in the world that mean much more than a car being broken but right now thats my only outlet to get away from things. I'm broken. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2005|02:23 pm] |
F I R S T
*First Best Friend: crystal
*First Crush: nathan gloyd haha
*First Date: shit no clue
*First Kiss: joey
*First Album/CD: no clue
*First Piercing/Tattoo: ears when i was in the second grade
*First True Love: vito
*First Enemy: never really had an enemy
*First Time Dying My Hair: freshman year?
*First Formal Dance: hm..i think it was freshman or sophmore year dont know which one
*First Time Breaking A Bone: never
*First Time Getting Really Sick: i got sea sick when i was reaally little
L A S T
*Last Cuss Word Uttered:
*Last Compliment: "you're beautiful"
*Last/Current boy/girlfriend: vito
*Last Crush: vito..more like being in love though not really a crush
*Last Time Driving: yesterday
*Last Big Car Ride: vegas woooo
*Last Good Cry: pretty recently
*Last Movie Seen: fever pitch
*Last Phone Call: vito
*Last Thing Written: homework for sociology
*Last Show Watched: haha some thing on this one station cant remember
*Last Time Showered: this morning
*Last Shoes Worn: flip flops
*Last Person That You Saw Naked Besides You: uhh vito
*Last CD Played: aesrizzle
*Last Item Bought: iced tall unsweetened coffee..im so predictable
*Last Disappointment: uhh last night
*Last Annoyance: people who don't deal with things correctly
*Last Song You Heard: not sure
*Last Piercing/Tattoo: nose..which was taken out
*I AM: bored/annoyed/confused
*I WANT: have my old relationship back
*I HAVE: to stop talking to someone
*I WISH: i had my new car already and things went back to this time last year
*I MISS: santa barbara and everyone there
*I FEAR: ah so much
*I HEAR: the tv
*I SEARCH FOR: happiness again
*I WONDER: if hes actually really sorry
*I REGRET: a couple things
*I LOVE: my family, my friends, unfortunately vito still
*I ACHE: cause things are hard
*I AM ALWAYS: thinking
*I AM NOT: completely happy
*I DANCE: amazing haha
*I SING: all the time in the car
*I CRY: when i start thinking about things i'm trying to forget
*I AM NOT ALWAYS: as strong as i should be
*I WRITE: at times
*I WIN: all the time in the end
*I LOSE: nothing
*I CONFUSE: myself and others
*I HATE: that i still care
*I SHOULD: go do something productive
*three things you are often complimented for: my clothes, my face, my amazingly wonderful and oh so perfect personality
*you get embarrassed when: i get compliments sometimes
*you keep a diary: i dont keep a diary
*you like to cook: i dont like to cook i like people who cook for me
*you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: theres things no one will ever know
*you set your watch a few minutes ahead: noope right on time
*you bite your fingernails: never
*you believe in love: too much sometimes
*take a shower everyday: every single day someitmes twice
*have a(any) crush(es): meh
*think you've been in love: oh most definitely
*want to get married: yes
*have any tattoos/where?: nope never will
*piercings/where?: two in my ears
*get motion sickness: yeep
*think you're a health freak: meh kinda sometimes
*get along with your parents: completely
*SCREEN NAMES: dnlvrz
*SIGN: libra ..wonderfully balanced
*NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown
*CURRENT HAIR COLOR: blondish
*EYE COLOR: brown
FAVORITES
*NUMBER: 19
*COLOR: pink
*DAY: saturday
*MONTH: july
*SONG: i have too many
*FOOD: cake but i dont eat it
*SEASON: spring
*DRINK: iced coffee
PREFERENCES
*CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?: BOTH same time
*CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?: too much sugar
*MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?: sugar free white chocolate
*VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE?: mmm vanilla
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU....
*CRIED?: not reaally got a lil teary eyed
*HELPED SOMEONE?: yesss
*BOUGHT SOMETHING?: a t shirt
*GONE TO THE MOVIES?: noppe
*GONE OUT FOR DINNER: bought dinner and made it at home
*SAID "I LOVE YOU"?: my daddy
*WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?:nope
*TALKED TO AN EX?: ehhh yea
*MISSED AN EX?: argh yes
*WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: does this count?
*HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: ehh yea
*MISSED SOMEONE?: bah! yes
*HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes
*KISSED SOMEONE?: uhh..
*FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?: nope
*FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: nope
1. do you do drugs?: nah
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: abbaaa smells like mint mmm
3. what are you most scared of?: not much
4. what are you listening to right now?: nothing
5. who is the last person that called you?: vito
6. where do you want to get married?: somewhere perfect
7. how many buddies are online right now?: 9
8. if you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?: height? nothing actually
c u r r e n t
*clothes: gap t shirt..james perse skirt .
*music: nada
*taste: nothing
*hair: in a ponytail
*annoyance: too much to list
*smell: my house? what do houses smell like
*fav artist: i dunno theres many i enjoy to look at
*desktop picture: boring dell background
*reading: books for my classes
*cd in player: no cd..because i have no car at the moment but if i did have a car it would be aesoop on my mp3..i love mp3's
*dvd in player: nunca
*refreshment: had some club soda a few minutes ago
a r e y o u
*understanding: waaaayyy too understanding
*open-minded: extremely
*interesting: oh god yes
*hungry: nah
*smart: smartest person in the WORLD
*moody: meh kinda
*hard working: very much so
*organized: quite organized
*healthy: very healthy
*shy: i can be very shy
*difficult: not really
*attractive: I'm a goddess
*bored easily: yeas
*messy: not at all
*responsible: oh yeaa
*obsessed: nope just adjusting
*angry: YES kinda
*sad: comes and goes
*happy: meh..more mellow and carefree at the moment
*hyper: not at all
w h o d o y o u w a n n a
*kill: vito
*slap: vito
*get really wasted with: OoO jared leto
*get high with: ick dont like being high
*look like: me
*talk to offline: i talk to everyone offline and online
*talk to online: meh no one
n u m b e r
*of times i have had my heart broken: multiple times..by two people..they put my heart through the blender
*of hearts I have broken: one will be two eventually they always come back
*of continents i have lived in: one
*of tight friends: three
*of scars on my body: none that i can think of ..im scarless
*of things in my past that i regret: theres one but nothing i care too much about |
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